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ColdThis seems cruel and selfish.. And from the outside, it is. But I'm unhappy. I don't get what I need. I can't find anyone who is reliable and selfless, humans like that just don't exist. I want someone with no material drive. Someone who can sit with me and watch the clouds roll by. Someone who is content and easy going. Someone who I would walk half way around the world just to see. I want someone whose mind is clear. I want someone who only has eyes for me. I want someone who sees the world like I do. Someone who can relate. Someone who will finally make me feel like I'm no longer a stranger to this planet. Someone who only wants me. I don't know why I settle. Maybe it makes me a bad person. Maybe it's because I don't want to force my expectations on another being. Maybe I deserve this. Maybe I deserve to be alone forever. I want to do more things for myself. I want to run away again. I don't want to hurt anyone. But I need to find my match who doesn't exist. And I need to sleep in t
Horses Everywhere!Mat: Can we go to the rodeo?
Me: No, there's horses, you're allergic.
Mat: Can we go to the parade?
Mat: The fair?
Mat: Junior hockey sign up?
Finding Me"I'm having a hard time again. I keep feeling like I'm a ton of different people one moment, and then like I'm no one. I constantly lose myself and walk away not really knowing what kind of a person I want to be. Everyone keeps pressuring me to be someone else, but I haven't even had enough time to figure out who- I am."
Life AgainLife is hard.
We lose the people we love.
Yet we love because it makes us feel complete.
We get hurt and betrayed in ways we never could imagine.
Yet we trust because we need to put faith in someone.
We mess up and make mistakes.
Yet we need to take chances in order to learn.
We never have enough time.
Yet we fight for it and make memories.
We have to accept some of the most difficult things.
Yet without it, we'd suffer denial.
We have to make hard choices.
Yet we know that a choice itself is a blessing.
Another Reality CheckGay marriage is legal in my country. Here's a list of all the problems it has caused me:
My thoughts on Human LifeEveryone has their own battles, that's personal to them. From my parents perspective, I was a "mistake"; sticky notes, chocolate-chip cookies, beer and popcorn were also mistakes. I didn't have the greatest life growing up. My parents split up and I wasn't always in the best home, my mom kicked me out at 16 and I had to stay with different people for a while. So fucking what? I still value MY life even if some people don't like me. I'm not going to base my experience in this world off someone elses opinion of me (including my parents). That's stupid. Why should anyone else choose that for me? I choose to enjoy life and I'm happy to be alive. My situation only affected me positively, it made me the strong woman I am today, I am a mother. My child was also unplanned, but some of the best things in life are unplanned. I don't think anyone deserves the right to decide if someone should be dead or alive. I don't support the death penalty either, but I do agree with life imprisonment for peo
ConfusedRight is wrong
And wrong is right
Pain is pleasure
And pleasure is pain
It's an upside down world
In my messed up mind
.The only reason why any artist is any good is because they looked at the fact they couldn't draw, and said 'I have to change that.'
To liveThought process;
To live vicariously through another
until we see the illusion within illusions
which reality do we set our foundation in
until we decide to move into another realm
its all real in the minds eye
there are no real hidden truths
just complacency within our own tolerances
What dictates drive under such circumstances?
The psychology of multiple selfs
pieces hidden from one another until the right moment
we mourn for ghosts
because beauty can't exist without loss
the clock ticks and we're quick to cast morality into different shades
to predict our mortality
based on experience
based on fact
based on a drive to understand
but moreover- to live
Reticent (minor trigger warnings)Do not speak to me of hate until you have carved the word into your own skin. You know nothing of self-loathing until you court a razor's edge to feel alive. And you have not truly felt pain until you wish that you had died.
The broken suffer behind walls as strong and cold as steel. They do so not to entice themselves into feeling protected, but rather, to keep out the bigotry, discrimination, and hateful stigmas hurled at their feet. Shame and solitude are too commonly experienced by those that most need compassion and understanding.
So do not speak to me of loneliness unless you have been cast out for revealing what you truly are. Do not dare to judge the broken and rejected unless you have been shattered by those you once thought cared. Do not leer and make light of the scars etched into my skin. Never do any of these until you truly know where I have been.
I will never say anything. Because you will Never feel or understand the way I do. If I had a penny for every time that I have
More Than Anything ElseWho am I really? Where did all this come from—the 70 sextillion twinkling stars, dark empty space, the radiant sphere of the sun, the mysterious cold white geometry of the moon, our big mudball earth, we 7.3 billion human ants on it, the showers, the soakers, the storms, the rivers rolling to the one big deep green sea? You and me—hey, and that little gnat right there—where are we all going? Why are we born? Why must we die? What should we do while we’re here? Why does life seem so horribly unequal and unfair? Why do some suffer and die while others party and play golf? Why have I been healthy and happy for seventy-one years while innocent, loving children suffer deformity, disfigurement, neglect, molestation, torture, and death? Why are we heartless, cold, and cruel? Why do we taunt and torment the weak? Why do we kill? Why do we hate? Why is there eternal war? How can I help the helpless, the poor, the sick, the dying, the dead? How should I feel in the knowle
AntecedenceWhen something is amiss, no matter how bad.. judge the cause of the problem, rather than
the consequence of it
It's easier to frown upon the one who is overwhelmed.. reacting.. and heard. It should be
understood why. Like fire, pain and it's consequence.. doesnt start on it's own
What Is Real?---Krishnamurti once asked the question of whether there can be action without thought. In reaction to this---thought inevitably came, producing action in the form of a series of further questions. What follows is a personal investigation into Krishnamurti's statement based on previous consideration regarding the concept that all is mind.
---"Action without thought". Does this mean that thought stops entirely? Or is it that action is not present in thought, meaning that it is no longer diluted by the distraction of self absorbed thought? If action is within thought does this mean that there is minimal awareness rather than total awareness? And if this is the reality (that universe is mind, existence being idea), would it mean that everything in our physical world has awareness? Inanimate objects included? Furthermore, if action with thought propelling it is an indication of an idea under development, does this mean that a still object is more evolved?
---What is the difference between
Writing Fan Fiction For BeginnersWriting Fan Fiction For Beginners
I’m not going to pretend that my way is the only way. What works for some people might not work for others. What I will talk about, however, are things that I wish someone had told me when I first started writing fan fiction.
Write about a fandom you love. I can’t stress this enough. It can be tempting - very tempting - to write for a big fandom because of the potential for more reviews, follows, and favourites. But fan fiction is often the very first time that people show their writing to others. That can be a very scary experience. It is a lot easier to write about something you love, so take some of the pressure off by focusing on a fandom you care about.
Don’t be afraid to post a story. I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again: every writer was once a novice. Don’t be ashamed if your writing isn’t as good as someone else’s. Instead, focus on your own writing and your own improve
15 Interesting Things to do15 Interesting things to do:
1. Go for a long drive and play some good music.
2. Take pictures in nature.
3. Have sex against/on a freezer. XD
4. Write a letter to someone you know (Get a friend's address if you don't have it)
5. Fly a kite.
6. Go for a hike in a place you've never been.
7. Make yourself a smoothie.
8. Toss a football or frisbee.
9. Have sex in a vehicle (Don't get caught!). (;
10. Give a respectful compliment to a stranger.
11. Climb a tree.
12. Skip a day of work or schooling to make "you time".
13. Go fishing.
14. Draw or paint something. (Even if you're not an artist)
15. Learn some origami. (Even something basic)
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