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ColdThis seems cruel and selfish.. And from the outside, it is. But I'm unhappy. I don't get what I need. I can't find anyone who is reliable and selfless, humans like that just don't exist. I want someone with no material drive. Someone who can sit with me and watch the clouds roll by. Someone who is content and easy going. Someone who I would walk half way around the world just to see. I want someone whose mind is clear. I want someone who only has eyes for me. I want someone who sees the world like I do. Someone who can relate. Someone who will finally make me feel like I'm no longer a stranger to this planet. Someone who only wants me. I don't know why I settle. Maybe it makes me a bad person. Maybe it's because I don't want to force my expectations on another being. Maybe I deserve this. Maybe I deserve to be alone forever. I want to do more things for myself. I want to run away again. I don't want to hurt anyone. But I need to find my match who doesn't exist. And I need to sleep in t
Horses Everywhere!Mat: Can we go to the rodeo?
Me: No, there's horses, you're allergic.
Mat: Can we go to the parade?
Mat: The fair?
Mat: Junior hockey sign up?
Finding Me"I'm having a hard time again. I keep feeling like I'm a ton of different people one moment, and then like I'm no one. I constantly lose myself and walk away not really knowing what kind of a person I want to be. Everyone keeps pressuring me to be someone else, but I haven't even had enough time to figure out who- I am."
Life AgainLife is hard.
We lose the people we love.
Yet we love because it makes us feel complete.
We get hurt and betrayed in ways we never could imagine.
Yet we trust because we need to put faith in someone.
We mess up and make mistakes.
Yet we need to take chances in order to learn.
We never have enough time.
Yet we fight for it and make memories.
We have to accept some of the most difficult things.
Yet without it, we'd suffer denial.
We have to make hard choices.
Yet we know that a choice itself is a blessing.
Another Reality CheckGay marriage is legal in my country. Here's a list of all the problems it has caused me:
My thoughts on Human LifeEveryone has their own battles, that's personal to them. From my parents perspective, I was a "mistake"; sticky notes, chocolate-chip cookies, beer and popcorn were also mistakes. I didn't have the greatest life growing up. My parents split up and I wasn't always in the best home, my mom kicked me out at 16 and I had to stay with different people for a while. So fucking what? I still value MY life even if some people don't like me. I'm not going to base my experience in this world off someone elses opinion of me (including my parents). That's stupid. Why should anyone else choose that for me? I choose to enjoy life and I'm happy to be alive. My situation only affected me positively, it made me the strong woman I am today, I am a mother. My child was also unplanned, but some of the best things in life are unplanned. I don't think anyone deserves the right to decide if someone should be dead or alive. I don't support the death penalty either, but I do agree with life imprisonment for peo
What Is Love What Is Love
Love is an emotion, but it is also something more.
To deny ones self for the sake of another,
To put the self second instead of first,
That, is love.
Love is not idle, Love is not stationary.
Love moves, Love is action.
On Heroes and VillainsThere’s a saying, “When on the path to becoming a hero be wary that you don’t wind up the villain”. What that saying doesn’t warn you about is that ultimately the paths become one and the same and it’s almost impossible to see the dividing line.
The Problem with MemoryThe Problem with Memory
I don’t care what anyone remembers of me after I die. I mean, I’ll be dead, I won’t be around to care. And to a lesser extent I don’t even care what anyone evokes of me while I still draw breath. Memory is a broken concept. It can be warped and skewed by even the most impartial observer until it has no bearing on fact, on what truly occurred. How many great men does our society reminisce fondly of who were hated in their lifetimes, perhaps for good reason? And how many unassuming saints die in total obscurity by the very nature of their humility, their good deeds never to be thought of again?
I say it again, memory is a broken concept.
This is our curse, imaginably, for our own hubris. Or maybe it is the reason our race as a whole suffers such grand delusions in the first place, that we might have worshipped Caesar and Augustus as divine beings instead of the plain men they were. Plain men we all are, flesh and blood, and imperfect to the
Hello, My Name Is Oscar
Hello, my name is Oscar. This is my story.
From when I can remember, I had lived in a cage with my brother. I didn’t mind it. We kept each other company. We had plenty of humans giving us food and water, playing with us, petting us, giving us attention. We had the life.
One day changed that, though. It started off like any other day, my brother and I sleeping in the cool indoors, when a little girl and her mother walked into the store. She was looking at the various other cats that were in other cages, before she turned to her mom and asked her something. The mother pointed to our cage and replied. Of course, I wasn’t too bothered by it. Humans came in and out all the time, looking at us animals in cages. I simply rolled over onto my stomach. Then the door to our cage opened. That’s funny, I thought, we were already fed today. One of the humans who fed us took my brother and me out of the cage, handing my brother to the girl’s mom and me to the little girl
LABOR DAY 2014 “LABOR DAY”
(What Made America Great)
Another labor day is nearly at hand
Those whom we honor, in this, OUR GREAT land
All who do toil week after long week
Hoping to gain the ‘dream’ they each seek.
For those who DO ‘risk’ everything they possess
To start a new business with financial stress
We THANK YOU for investing in places you reside
In hopes that your business will give you much ‘pride‘.
But we ASK that you also remember the people
Who helped build your dream, your church, their steeple
For both on ‘their own’’ stand tall and stand proud
Yet when COMBINED, both shout it out loud!
There’s a delicate balance between ‘worker’ and ‘boss’
To disregard EITHER is everyone’s LOSS
One without the other is like a man with NO ‘Heart’
Who walks on this earth but is always ‘Apart’.
I fear that this ’balance’ is no longer ‘true’
On Fate and Destiny and OtherHere you stand at a crossroads. The road of fate to the left and the road of destiny to your right. If you were to go left then you were fated to choose so but if you go to the right then you were destined to go that way. But what if you choose neither? What if instead of choosing one or the other you made a different choice? What would we call that?
One word for it may be “freedom”.
On Strength Beyond StrengthI know a lot of strong people, people who can’t climb a wall or win a fight or even lift a box over thirty pounds above their head, but they’re strong because they have something most “strong” people lack. Perseverance. They are strong because they are determined and maybe too stubborn to back down.
That in itself is a form of strength.
On FreedomWhen I think of freedom, true freedom without rues or laws, I see the way of the natural world. I also see, however, chaos. Chaos which only appears when you give humans the freedom of the natural world. Mankind can’t handle freedom therefore they create chaos. Humans are meant to be bound by social, cultural and political tethers, humans can not know or have true freedom.
In the name of...In nomine amoris
I did it so we could be together.
I did it for her.
I did it for him.
In nomine dei
I did it because the book said so.
I did it because the holy one demanded it.
I did it to be worthy.
In nomine Domini pax
It wasn't supposed to happen like this.
I did it to stop them from hurting us.
I did it for the greater good.
in nomine... ad rem?
no, it does not.
15 Interesting Things to do15 Interesting things to do:
1. Go for a long drive and play some good music.
2. Take pictures in nature.
3. Have sex against/on a freezer. XD
4. Write a letter to someone you know (Get a friend's address if you don't have it)
5. Fly a kite.
6. Go for a hike in a place you've never been.
7. Make yourself a smoothie.
8. Toss a football or frisbee.
9. Have sex in a vehicle (Don't get caught!). (;
10. Give a respectful compliment to a stranger.
11. Climb a tree.
12. Skip a day of work or schooling to make "you time".
13. Go fishing.
14. Draw or paint something. (Even if you're not an artist)
15. Learn some origami. (Even something basic)
Nervous MovementYou're a dime a dozen in a sea of billions.
Individuality has no significance in numbers so vast.
And while this fact makes looking forward hard
we can't keep living in the past.
You're a nervous movement in a freeze frame scene.
Steady hands won't help hold up such a fragile act.
And while you take your time keeping character
you fake what you can't take back.
With nothing more than a thought we form our actions
and this is where we extinguish the lie they tried to invent.
The lie that we painted our lives without passion
well conclusions are useless with no attempt to commence.
You're a song I can't name stuck in my head.
I've listened to you before and probably will again.
And while I can hum the melody all day long waiting
for it to hit me I still won't know where you've been.
You're a gust that has never changed direction.
Nothing can touch you you're only felt as you brush skin.
And while you can't be stopped nothing lasts
nothing escapes time not even the wind.
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